this is punk rock!

masa : 0100

hari   : khamis / julai 2013,25hb

Hello there!

English medium? bahasa? Haha. campur-campur lah! This is punk rock kn!

The rolling stone megazine plus a CD's from seasick pirates is the best mixture to write this punk rock post!

I believe most of the rockstar in this country do not have this seasick pirates original CD's.haha.i don't care.

I'm always thinking that am i a true punk rock? This is a question maybe. But, on other hand i think this is more to thinking value rather than a true ideology. why? I will write below, a few maybe - direct from my idea - through to this country perception.

Kenapa perlu punk rock? 

Very simple. Each of us was born with an attitude to be curious. Mustahil untuk hidup tanpa ada sifat ingin tahu. Tetapi malangnya, kita disekat untuk menjadi lebih ingin tahu. Mengapa? Kerana mereka risau. Risau kerana apa? Kerana takut anak bangsa melayu menjadi lebih intelligent dari mereka. Aku sendiri tidak pernah memilih untuk menjadi punk rock glamour di telivisyen, kerana itu tidak pasti. Dan itu semua hanyalah sementara. Aku memilih untuk intelligent. Kerana itu kekal. Dan kita sudah diberikan pilihan untuk memilih yang sementara ataupun yang kekal. Dengan nama yang pastinya berbangsa melayu dan beragama islam, yang kekal itu pastinya ingin dikejar dan dipraktikkan dalam kehidupan harian. Tetapi aku selalu dihalang.

Prevented by the stupid person who was believe rules & regulation must be observed a day by a day, by a month, by a year & ever. Then, where you placed your brain intelligent? 

Bagi sahaja contoh mudah di waktu ini. Mengapa perlu ada tentangan untuk TITAS dijadikan matapelajaran wajib di IPTS? kerana takut cina & india masuk islam? Heheh. This is stupid. Untuk menjadi seorang yang hormat kepada bangsa & agama lain, kita perlu faham asal usul budaya orang lain. Sudahlah bangsa sendiri pun tidak tahu mana asal usul, dibodohkan lagi dengan tidak mahu mengkaji bangsa lain. Bukan menidakkan Tun Sri Lanang, tetapi adakah salah untuk belajar tamadun asia & dunia? Mahupun karya stephan hawking? Jika anda katakan sains itu tidak penting, itu hanyalah ilustrasi dari seorang yang buta kepada idea.

I personally learned in the science stream from high school, directly through to the university, with very heavy mathematics & structural engineering, until I'm graduate & become an engineer. For what all of this? To learn. To generate my brain. Do not static with this country perception who always believe anything you want to do - you should follow the rules & regulations. Rules which mean you cannot voice up your brain intelligent to the maximum height. Rules which mean when you walk to your future career, corruption, money-bag cheating is everywhere. And at last i will stop this career due to the high-tension of this shit working environment..and not because of you cannot use your brain intelligent!

Here, i like to list a few of punk rock band that i think was an intelligent rock, and not the stupid mtv show glamour! I choose bad religion & propagandhi rather than greenday for overseas band. So, its mean billie joe is not my favourite musicians. Heheh. Greg Graffin and Chris Hannah, both from bad religion & propagandhi is the brain-intelligent punk that i choose. Eventhough propagandhi only release their science-stream song on their 6th album, i'm still choose them!

Far from my heart, i want all of you outside there really understand what i mean, punk rock music not about to teach you how to become a muslim, but a little teach me how to generate my brain. Not to be brilliant, but ideally give me some space to thinking what is the life mean. Not all the reality in-front of you become dreaming. At last, how much you read, how much you try to learn, you always believe there is only ONE that give you everything. That's the fact that i believe 100% from us still not realise.

Life is everything about experience.

Selamat malam!

a journey to saudi arabia - Part 2

masa : 2300

hari   : Khamis / Julai 2013,11hb

Assalamualaikum & Selamat Petang!

Terasa janggal bila menulis tajuk dalam bahasa inggeris dan diisi dengan kandungan dalam bahasa malaysia. Tetapi dengan mp3 dari FSF, segala-segalanya terasa rock! Antara kumpulan-kumpulan besar yang semakin lenyap nama mereka dari senarai2 gig di kuala Lumpur. Sayang juga bila teringatkan kali terakhir berjumpa & menyaksikan persembahan mereka di One Cafe dahulu. Dengan haze sunshine haze,mahupun tolerate no more,memang menarik mereka ini.

Ok. Terus kepada sedikit pengalaman di arab saudi!

Setelah habis waktu di madinah dalam bahagian 1, mungkin aku sendiri sudah lupa apa yang terjadi di makkah. Haha. mungkin inilah yang dikatakan ramai orang, jangan suka menangguhkan kerja. Bila ditangguh segala-galanya akan berubah. tetapi aku sendiri akan cuba sebaik mungkin untuk mengeluarkan sedikit info semasa berada disana.

Jarak perjalanan dari madinah ke makkah adalah lebih kurang 430km. atau ianya boleh diukur dalam bentuk masa selama 6 ke 7 jam bergantung kepada keadaan trafik. pengangkutan utama adalah bas dan melalui lebuhraya 3lorong bagi sehala perjalanan. Bermaksud 6lorong jika dikira kedua-dua belah. Tidak mempunyai tol untuk dibayar seperti di negara yang rakyatnya selalu dipaksa untuk bersyukur. Damansara pergi puchong pun ada 2 tol RM1.60 untuk dibayar. Sebabnya? Mungkin ada RNR yang boleh diberi kepada pengguna jalan untuk berehat dan membuang air kecil.

Sepanjang perjalanan ke makkah, hanyalah terdapat padang pasir untuk dilihat dari tingkap bas. kebetulan kami bergerak pada waktu malam di hari ketiga. Hampir separuh perjalanan kami berhenti rehat di perhentian yang hampir sama seperti RNR di lebuhraya2 kita. Cuma masalah disini ialah, tandas dan surau yang terlalu kecil jumlahnya jika hendak dibandingkan dengan jumlah jemaah yang berhenti disini. Cuaca agak dingin. Jadi dengan ihram dibadan, memang agak sejuk la untuk berdiri lama disana. Sempat juga aku sekeluarga membeli nasi beryani untuk mengisi perut. Harganya 15Riyal dan boleh dimakan untuk 3orang kerana saiz hidangan itu sendiri yang terlalu besar bagi rakyat malaysia am nya.

Owh ya,sebelum bergerak dari madinah tadi, kami sudah berniat ihram di masjid Bir-Ali. Bir-Ali antara tempat berniat ihram yang paling popular di madinah. Masjid besar berwarna putih dapat dilihat jelas dari jalan utama menuju keluar dari madinah. Juga sempadan antara tanah haram & tanah halal.

Mungkin agak keliru untuk membezakan antara tanah haram & tanah halal bagi mereka yang tidak pernah ke tanah suci. Ada banyak pendapat disini untuk membezakan antara tanah haram & tanah halal. Bagi menjelaskan dengan lebih terperinci, mungkin perlukan seorang ahli agama ataupun ustaz yang begitu arif. Aku sendiri adalah seorang manusia yang jahil. Bagi pendapat aku sendiri, tanah haram itu sendiri adalah tempat dimana hanya seorang muslim sahaja yang boleh memijaknya, haram bagi mereka yang bukan beragama islam kerana dijaga kesuciannya, dijaga sempadanannya oleh para malaikat. Manakala bagi tanah halal, dibolehkan kepada sesiapa untuk memijaknya & memasukinya. Dijanjikan juga kepada kita umat nabi Muhammad S.A.W bahawa tanah haram ini juga akan menjadi tempat terakhir yang tidak boleh dimasuki Dajjal yang durjana untuk memusnahkannya. Begitu lah hebatnya mukjizat nabi junjungan kita Muhammad S.A.W.

Bila sudah berniat ihram, kita harus menjaganya sehingga habis rukun umrah kita yang terakhir iaitu tahalul(Bercukur). Rukun umrah itu sendiri begitu cantik iaitu dimulakan dengan niat umrah dengan berihram, diikuti dengan tawaf(mengelilingi kaabah), disusuli dengan saie (berjalan ulang alik dari bukit safa ke bukit marwah) dan diakhiri dengan tahalul(Bercukur). Disertakan juga dengan tertib iaitu mengikut urutan. Sangat cantik.

Niat umrah mestilah dilakukan di sempadan tanah halal & tanah haram. Antara tempat yang popular ialah di Bir-Ali (Madinah) dan di Hudaibiyah. Di Hudaibiyah jangan terkejut kerana masjid disana masih lagi menggunakan air masin dari laut untuk berwuduk disebabkan sangat sukar untuk mendapatkan air terawat.

Setelah lebih kurang 7jam perjalanan dari madinah, kami tiba di makkah lebih kurang pukul 12malam waktu tempatan. Setelah masuk mendaftar di hotel penginapan, lebih kurang 300m dari masjidil haram, kami bersiap untuk mengerjakan & menyelesaikan umrah yang pertama kami. Secara rombongan,kami berjalan ke masjidil haram atau Al-Haram dalam bahasa tempatan, lebih kurang 10minit berjalan kaki ke masjidil haram. Dalam waktu 10minit itu sendiri, aku begitu terpaku oleh perasaan yang betul2 sayu & merendah diri untuk menjejakkan kaki di masjidil haram. Jika selama ini aku hanya melihat jam hijau besar di menara,mahupun pintu besar utama di masjidil haram hanya di dalam gambar, sekarang segala-galanya ada di sekeliling aku - di depan mata aku sendiri. MasyaAllah. Hanya tuhan sahaja yang tahu. Pintu besar utama aku dahului, atau lebih dikenali dengan pintu 1 (Pintu King abdul Aziz), betul2 berhadapan dengan menara jam hijau besar. Kami terus berjalan melalui Pintu 1 dan menuruni anak tangga sebelum melihat Kaabah yang tersergam indah di depan mata buat pertama kali seumur hidup aku. Terlalu indah. Perasaannya. Keadaannya. Suasananya. Segala-galanya.

Kami berhenti sekejap untuk bersolat sunat, sujud bersyukur atas kebesarannya betul2 di hadapan Kaabah. Selesai bersolat sunat, kami menjamah air zam2 sebelum memulakan tawaf. Lokasi kaabah betul2 di tengah2 masjidil haram. Jika di ukur dari segi kejuruteraan, kedudukan Kaabah adalah sedikit rendah dari lantai GF masjidil haram, jadi ianya sangat indah untuk ditatapi seperti anda melihat pemain menendang bola di stadium sedangkan anda duduk di kerusi yang lebih tinggi dari padang. Lantai disekeliling kaabah adalah jubin sepenuhnya, berwarna putih berkilau. Jadi anda akan berjalan di lantai jubin sebanyak 7pusingan untuk bertawaf. Dimulakan dengan niat, aku memegang erat tangan ibuku agar tidak hilang dilanggar manusia yang sangat ramai disitu. Tawaf dimulakan di lampu hijau, atau berhadapan dengan kedudukan hajaral aswad dan hijir ismail.

Ok. Bersambung di bahagian 3 lah. Rasa macam boleh tulis habis, tetapi macam dah terlalu panjang pula.haha.


P/S - Sangat kelakar bila bersembang dengan mike dari marjinal sambil mendendangkan lagu anak kampung dari jimmy palikat & one nation emcee. Tak sangka juga mike pandai bermain muzik tradisional kerana dia sendiri ada darah kalimantan.haha.

berikan sebuah sinar.

masa : 0100

hari   : Selasa / Jun 2013,18hb

Assalamualaikum & Selamat Pagi!

Permulaan yang sangat menarik untuk kembali menulis dalam bahasa. Bukan malu ataupun tidak suka, tetapi inilah yang masih terjadi, aku sendiri masih tidak pasti adakah bahasa melayu ataupun bahasa malaysia yang sesuai digunakan untuk bahasa rasmi ini. Mungkin tidak keterlaluan untuk kembali ke alam persekolahan dan bertanyakan semula soalan ini kepada guru-guru yang pernah mengajar dahulu. Tetapi, tidak tahu pula kepada siapa hendak bertanya. Terlalu banyak berfikiran negatif bila mengingatkan kembali zaman sekolah. Hanya bersandarkan kepada minat muzik rock-keras, dipangkah habis-habisan kononnya pembawa budaya negatif.haha.manusia-manusia. Rasuah? Tidak negatif? Haha. Pedulikan semua itu!

Mungkin jawapan ini boleh aku pendekkan bila mana melihat keputusan sijil pelajaran malaysia yang jelas ditulis mata pelajaran bahasa malaysia - keputusan a2. a2? Puihh!! Kata melayu,tapi bahasa pun tak boleh score? Haha. Kawan.. Bahasa malaysia bukan hanya bertutur dengan rakan-rakan se-melayu dan terus duduk periksa je,tapi merangkumi semua aspek dari segi penulisan, pemahaman, tatabahasa dan tidak lupa juga sastera. Sastera? Aku kan buat sains masa tingkatan 4? buat apa nak belajar sastera? Hmm.. Kalau macam tu buat apa belajar tatabahasa kalau tak tau nk berbahasa? Ceh.. Kita kan sekolah ikut buku. Apa orang ajar kita ikut je la. Kurangkan bertanya. Nanti kena tangkap polis.

Oleh yang demikian, terimalah bahasa malaysia yang tidak seberapa pandai dari aku ni untuk meneruskan tulisan ini ya! Haha.

Kehidupan adalah suatu yang subjektif untuk dibincangkan. Subjektif ialah perkataan bahasa inggeris yang ditukarkan menjadi bahasa malaysia pada waktu ini. Jawapan kepada subjektif itu sendiri ialah pelbagai. Jadi, jelas yang kita mempunyai pelbagai pilihan untuk melangsungkan kehidupan kita. Senang je nak faham, kalau soalan periksa subjektif, mesti ada banyak pilihan jawapan untuk dipilih. Yang otak terbuka sikit, ataupun yang agak cerdik dan pandai selalunya akan memilih jawapan A, B atau C untuk soalan itu. Dan selalunya untuk yang kurang pandai atau yang paling menakutkan tidak pasti apa jawapan untuk soalan itu, mereka selalulanya akan memilih jawapan D atau semua yang di atas untuk soalan itu. Inilah yang sangat membimbangkan dalam mana keadaan kita untuk bertukar kepada sebuah generasi yang semakin maju, memilih jawapan semua di atas kerana kita tidak pasti dengan pilihan kita!

Kerana tidak pasti itu akan menjadi ikutan, dan dari ikutan itu akan menjadi budaya, bila menjadi budaya ia tidak boleh lagi dibendung dengan semudah yang disangka. Aku sendiri sangat berminat untuk mengambil sedikit lirik lagu dari marjinal, yang bodoh itu dibudayakan. Marjinal ialah sebuah kumpulan muzik rock dari tanah jawa, dan sangat terkenal dengan lirik2 keras mengutuk pemerintahan mereka dengan sangat kental. Baru beberapa hari menghabiskan jelajah borneo dan malaysia dengan jayanya. 

Ok. Kembali kepada budaya. 

Untuk mendapatkan sebuah budaya yang positif,perkara-perkara positif harus disemai dari awal lagi. Positif juga merupakan perkataan bahasa inggeris yang telah ditukar menjadi bahasa malaysia pada masa kini. 

Bila mana kita dapat menyemai nilai-nilai yang baik dari awal lagi, kita tidak akan terperangkap dalam kehidupan kita sendiri. Terlalu banyak pilihan untuk kita berjaya. Berjaya itu sendiri bukanlah hanya bergantung kepada keputusan peperiksaan. Jika kita sendiri tidak mampu untuk mentafsirkan apa itu berjaya,maka jelaslah yang kita tidak mampu untuk menyemai dan menerapkan budaya generasi maju untuk terus melangkah kehadapan. 

Ambil contoh aku sendiri yang membesar di kawasan kampung, walaupun tidak punya pengalaman luas, tapi aku dapat lihat sendiri bagaimana bangsa cina menukar secara menyeluruh sistem membeli dan menjual di sini. Kalau dahulu umur 10 ke 12 tahun, terlihat jelas bangsa cina menagih simpati untuk membeli buah-buahan tempatan rambutan durian dan sebagainya dari penduduk kampung melayu, tetapi sekarang,tidak sampai 20tahun pun, bangsa melayu aku sendiri yang menagih simpati pergi ke kedai2 bangsa cina untuk membeli sebiji buah durian mahupun 2-3kilo rambutan bila tiba musim buah. Kerana apa? Bangsa aku melayu tidak punya tanah? Tidak punya dusun buah? Adakah aku perkauman(Racist) bila bercerita mengenai ini? Bukan. Ini bukanlah satu penulisan perkauman. Tetapi lebih kepada memahami budaya bangsa cina yang tidak putus asa dan tidak malu untuk berusaha dan berniaga, jika dibandingkan dengan bangsa aku melayu yang mahu cepat untung dan malas berusaha untuk berjaya!

Ini semua budaya yang tidak sihat. Budaya yang bodoh. Dan harus dihentikan.

Dan kerana itulah kita perlukan satu budaya yang betul-betul kuat untuk kita terus melangsungkan kehidupan. Budaya yang harus disemai daripada sikap kita sendiri. Bukan untuk meniru dan memilih jalan pintas. Itu tidak betul.

Berfikir dan bertindak haruslah matang. Sinar akan muncul akhirnya.

Lepas ni lah baru sambung balik journey part 2 ok!haha.

Owh ya, kepada rakan-rakan yang melangsungkan perkahwinan hampir setiap minggu di sepanjang suku pertama tahun 2013 ini, aku ucapkan tahniah dan selamat berbahagia sehingga ke akhir hayat hendaknya. Kepada mereka-mereka yang aku tidak dapat hadir ke majlis, mintak maaf la sangat2. Bukan hati tak nak pergi, tapi langsung tak dapat nak urus masa kosong. Jadi, boleh la claim balik hadiah kalau yang tak puas hati tu ya?haha.

Kalau tiada apa yang mengganggu, mungkin aku sendiri akan mengadakan majlis perkahwinan pada awal november ini, atau lebih tepat lagi pada 02/11/13 ini. Jadi sudi-sudikan lah kepada mereka yang lapang pada waktu itu ya! 

kemana selepas may of 5th?

Time : 2330
Day  : Monday / April,22nd

Assalamualaikum!

Still standing or will be collapse after May,5th? Yes. This is great to see either the very popular Pakatan will condemn Barisan in making a way to Putrajaya or not. Heheh. 

So, where are you my fellow after that? Still in-front of your keyboard keep updating your facebook status or find another solution to celebrate your winning-candidate's at your Dewan Undangan Negeri area or your Parlimen area? heheh.

Dont worry my fellow, we surely keep the same. No need to worry either PTPTN will be abolish under Pakatan, or Pakatan will be abort our Toll-Concessions and we can go anywhere without pay this toll concessions. Or no need to worry negara akan bankrup if everything will be on free-method. Heheh.

Everything was calculated properly. How much they want, how much they don't want, everything was calculated. Ready. No need to worry. Even me, still worried why i still don't want to continue part 2 of my journey and choose this political issue in-front of En.Ewan request to continue for part 2 writing! Haha.

I like to write this topic because i'm very interested when one of my good 'senior friends' from a very big multi-national company talk to me a few night ago. This word give me a few of question on my head. No need to highlight what the company name. It sound's like this :

A message from CEO : To keep our good reputation in industry, we need to support government because our project totally become from government. We need to start our mega project as soon as possible. First, we need to remove anti-government sentiment in selangor to ensure our company reputation.

Heheh. Mana-mana pun boleh lah. Malaysia boleh lah!

Multi-billion for MRT, multi-billion for WCE(West Coast Expressway), multi-billion for PNB menara warisan. Banyak-banyak kan la membaca rakyat melayu semua oi. Jangan taksub sangat dengan ketuanan melayu dan negara islam kita ni. Takde apa dah nak tinggal kt anak cucu nanti-kata menteri-menteri.

As long as im still working in this corrupt industry, i like - i love to share what i get from this 'professional industry'. Im still believe i can standing without this corrupt people, but sometime i need to fuck-up this corrupt people because this is what we called menjual maruah bangsa dengan duit..bullshit!

Stand with your own attitude. Stand with your great talent. Your value will be shining at last.

Selamat mengundi malaysia boleh!

a journey to saudi arabia - Part 1

Time : 2230
Day  : Friday / March,8th

Assalamualaikum!

Hi and hello to my fellow again! What a great February for me! And again, im coming to give you a few of experienced that i collect from saudi arabia!

Maybe this is a small and ordinary for some of you outside there. But, for me, this is a big journey! Yeah,i am an ordinary person with a big idea on my head! And, i will share with you what i get from there.

Its about 7pm(Malaysia time) when i first introduce by flight attendance to tight-up my belt, and get ready for the departure time. I just follow the instruction, sit quietly, and alhamdulillah, everything was ok. Because i flight from johor bahru, it will take 8hours and 30minute to Jeddah, Saudi Arabia. Jeddah was an international airport for saudi arabia. Actually, it will good to say a main-international airport. Jeddah same with KLIA? no! You are kidding me if you said like that! In term of size, there is about a thousand time bigger than KLIA. And i believe, how busy this airport when season of haji. But, unfortunately,  in term of management system, its very sad to say Jeddah airport is totally out of control. So, at the end, Malaysia is better than them!

I arrive at Jeddah airport around 0430am (malaysia time). Its around 2330pm for local time. Very simple to calculate, they are behind us 5hours in time. Its mean, if they want to watching champions league live on astro, not necessaries to them to stay up late at night because their local time only show it around 2100-2200pm! How luck was them! Haha.

After checking all the luggage and pasport (there is around 2 to 3 hours to settle all of this!), our group take the chance to perform solat(Isyak Time) at waiting area. Owh ya, at there (i mean saudi arabia), very easy to  look for a place to perform solat. Very easy. Everywhere. 

And after complete that matter, i start to move on into the next journey using bus. We are heading to Madinah. There is about 400km from Jeddah airport. Or i can say about 7 to 8 hours in time. Along the way, i take a chance to read a few of history about madinah. And the most important thing is to pray and convey my greeting to our prophet, Nabi junjungan Muhammad S.A.W. Madinah is always give me a good memories maybe untill i died one day. I start to feel choked, sad and shed tears when im getting closer to madinah. I don't know why, maybe because im still believe tiada Tuhan yg disembah melainkan Allah, dan Nabi Muhammad S.A.W itu pesuruh allah. And now im getting closer to his village. To his mosque - masjid nabawi. And to his remains - makam Nabi junjungan kita - inside his masjid nabawi.

Finally, i arrive at madinah around 0900am(local time). After check in into my room, i take a breakfast. And i go to masjid nabawi. Its only around 200m from my hotel. Very cold there, around 14degree celcious. Or to be clear, it like we open the aircond button on early in the morning! 

I take the chance to perform a few of sembahyang sunat inside this number two holy mosque for us. I feel very comfortable there. Inside this mosque. The design, the environment, the history, totally give me speechless to talk. I feel something like proud to be muslim. Thanks to my parents to give me this chance to be a lucky person who was arrive and set my foot to this mosque. 

After that, im going to start exploring this mosque. For my lovely fellow, inside this masjid nabawi mosque, lies the garden of paradise which called RAUDAH. RAUDAH is a bounty of our God to Junjungan kita Nabi Muhammad S.A.W. It was placed between Mimbar Nabi Muhammad S.A.W and the door of Siti Aishah house. You can enter this place using a very popular door which is called Babus-Salam. From that door, just walking inside, and you can see the RAUDAH on your left side. Too crowded here. Owh ya, in masjid nabawi, especially on Babus-Salam door, you cannot enter together between male and female. There is special time for female to enter here, if im not forgot around 2100pm to the morning, which is mean after Isyak time.

In-front of RAUDAH, you can stop to convey your greeting to Junjungan kita Nabi Muhammad S.A.W because makam Nabi Muhammad S.A.W is about a few step from RAUDAH, placed on your left side. From outside view of masjid nabawi, you can see the green dome, and Makam Nabi is properly located below this green dome. Just beside Makam Nabi, placed a very good sahabat Nabi, Saidina Umar R.A. And here, when i stop to convey my greeting, i feel so sad, i want to crying, this is we called Nur(cahaya), i believe our prophet never leave us. I can feel. I can touch this feeling of Nur(cahaya) untill today still bloom in the hearts all of us. Alhamdullilah. Thanks Allah. 

This is really touch my heart.

I think this is too long for the part 1 of my journey. Im very sure, you was guarantee boring with this writing. haha.  

I will continue this part 2 of my journey on the next time.

Terima Kasih.

Do whatever you like to do. Do not do like what your friends like to do. 

berfikir..dan kenapa?

Time : 2330 Day : Tuesday / February,5th

So long time, almost a years ago i didn't update and writing on this blog. Not because of this shit working hours, but to be fair its about don't know what to share with you. Everything was repeat and repeat, a day by a month - for a years and maybe for-ever. We are still doing the same thing, every day want to be a facebook fans, keep updating our status, even what to eat today still need a comment from our followers. No need to said all of them, even me still sign in on facebook almost every night. For what? That the answer! Don't know what to do! Ceh!

But, far from this, i really like to share what i called a very interesting topic for me. Yes, i like to read anything that give an idea to me. But, when my lovely gf ask me what this few people doing. This few people here means all the d.i.y people. Don't know why, but i like this topic because i want this outsider know what is mean d.i.y, what is mean independent, what is mean an open idea, what is mean punk rockers! Because for me there is totally wrong when you are thinking rock music is always be a wrong path on your life. There is no reason to thinking like that. For me, you have to differentiate this with your culture, with your religion. If you cannot, then believe me, you will never get the answer. At the end, you will choose what you want to be. There is very clear. When i go back to 5 to 10years ago, I'm still thinking the same think. Why i do a charity work, or i do a donation event/workshop, or why i choose to buy a hand-made shirt from this scene, or why i do and publish zine without profit, and maybe why i choose to go for punk rock gig than i go to big concert? Yes. because i want this d.i.y scene become a big culture and show this outsider what we can do without any profit or corruption from any part of our environment. I choose to spent my ten ringgit money to this d.i.y scene, rather than i buying a ten ringgit burger at mc.donald. No, not because I'm stupid. But it's totally show what i do not like using my small part. That is the attitude that i want to smile's now, when i see everyone start to boycott Jewish product when they aware Israel was condemn our palestin country..even this cruelty was occurred a long time ago! At least they know.

Not at all the time, sometime I'm very regret when a few of them still thinking there have no problem when they are support that opponent politician party because of they want to show a few of protest. That is not true my friends!

There is no different between Parti Keadilan Rakyat or Barisan Nasional. Both same. When you bring this issue, you will confuse at the end of your decision. To make it clear, stop it lah! I don't care who you are choose on the next PRU 13, but i care about our relation between us. Without this bullshit politic idea, we will make it as before. A very happening d.i.y culture. Everything inside there!

d i y punk on dilemma? #short review no.1

Time : 2200
Day : Wednesday / January,11th

2012? Yes. Happy new year for all of you outside there. With the new legal law to wearing sit-belt at the back, the very useless issue for ANWAR BANGANG last few days, Plus a very strict condition before make a loan from the bank, included the new UP-PRICE for every single things outside there with only 6-7% inflations (according to our barisan nasional committee) - yes. You have to celebrate all those thing before you go for the new 2012.

Not fair to list all those bad things for the new 2012, we also receive a lot of benefit for the new 2012. What? Want me to list down all the benefit? I refuse. I just like to 'touch' a few benefit that really give me a question mark. As an example : more units of 'my first home' will be built on 2012 for those with wages below Rm3000. With the new scheme you can buy the new 'my first home'. The things here is,how to pay the new Rm250000-300000 house based on Rm3000 salary when you live in kL/Selangor area? hahaha. come on. make it clear before you list it as a benefit.

ISA/AUKU? No more AUKU on 2012? Then why you bring this stupid UPSI student issue on cabinet? make it clear friends. You have the power. Use it. This is political issue. Not our people issue.

So, What we get from the new 2012? As usual, repeat and repeat again. D I Y punk still the same - on dilemma - year by years. Why? cause we was so stupid. When we are thinking to keep independent - and globalisation give us the very bad life - and we still keep the stupid independent phrase in our life. As a result, we still at the back - at the bottom part of the hierarchy.

Yes, D I y punk is all about how to survive using our independent effort. But, when im thinking back, why a few of us like to mention PKR on their issue. What is this man? If you are thinking government is the bullshit people, so how about 'Parti Haluan Kiri' like PKR and others? Are you thinking they are always right? To be a rational, open your eyes - and open your heart, please be a smart - and not a stupid D I Y punk.

Why we are all very shy when talking about the economy? the globalisation? the politicians issue? the academic issue? the financial issue? Is there because of we will loose all of our independent/D I Y punk attitude? come on. We have to change this stupid attitude. Knowledge is everywhere. Read it - share it - then it will make us more valuable than others.

Yes, we enjoy the music, we enjoy the magazine - and make it enjoy with the new one - knowledge! There's no more the old D I Y punk, we have to think our future, our competitor, then i believe it will give us more than valuable from before.

Keep it Rock my friends!!

moving - straight Line

Time : 0010
Day : Wednesday / July,20th

I like this topic. But dun noe how to start it properly. Hahaha.

Make it simple. What is moving? and also straight Line? Moving means you are move, absolutely
not static there. Very simple. If today you was 25, so tomorrow you are 25 and 1 days older than yesterday. It was moving. What happen with straight line? also simple examples, if you go straight you are moving on good position. Then when you turn either right or left, or make it difficult with very rough Line like take a corner or slope - then you make your moving difficult.

Ok. Stop it. I want to describe what i was means here to share with all of you outside there.

Friends. Yes, i respect all of my friends. But like this phrase means, different person - make
a different ideas. So, in every single seconds of my life, sometimes i didn't agree with a few person. Let use this situation as an examples : when you fuck this current politicians issue,
so why you take care of your self to take an action for this politicians issue? cause you want to show you was genuine Malay? so you only respect your Malay friends? This is useless man. You are racist. So, please dun said you are the man against racist people. Yes, i know we have a bunch of Chinese that show a very bullshit racist against Malay, Indian's also. But you have to think we as a Malay also have a bullshit person, a corrupt person and everything. So, we have
to stand against this bullshit people, and absolutely not against race man!

Independent. Yes, all of us was independent. If you are not, you can't survive here. Either to be a good students, or to be a good workers, or either to breathe in this world, you have to
use your own independent efforts to do all this thing. But, all of this have a different level. Actually, not a level, but a different meaning. You can't said you was an independent people after you was follow a HUJAN band or a BUNKFACE band.hahaha.This is not independent man! Yes, that was an independent band (personally i dun know on what aspect this band was independent), but you are not my friends. So, make it clearly, dun have to follow all this stupid music fashion to be an independent people. Just follow your heart, it was give you an independent feeling.

To make a simple conclusion - maybe, Please stop it. PERHIMPUNAN HALAL-HARAM ke, BERADU-DOMBA dalam facebook ke, Please. Stop it. No need to tulis Aku anak melayu ke, Aku anak cina ke, Aku tiga-line kuala pilah ke, Aku ah Long kampung pandan ke dalam facebook, No need. I know you are not to stupid only to differentiate either you are malay or chinese or indian's. So,please stop it man.

If you are not believing that neil amstrong was a first-ever human that arrive at moon,then stand with your opinion. We can't change the fact, but we have a right to throw this rubbish fact into the dustbin.

Keep moving - use straight line.

w o r k i n g s m a r t

Time : 2045
Day : Saturday / May,14th

How to be like there? It was absolutely nice when you know how to differentiate between
experience and your knowledge. No - and No. You cannot said you know everything in this
world. People ( as a subject in this issue ), always want everything - perfect from you. As a good worker's - with a good reason - you have to come out with your own character. But, how to make it smart?

Ok. Let me start with the first step. Don't be like your opponent character. Listen to your opponent, let his/him finish their word. yes..only that!

The next step is, Do whatever he ask you to do. No, it's not stupid. Be calm. Keep your excited mood, or your excellent word until you find the weakness of him.

When his/him do the mistake, finish him with your brilliant word. Show his/him who are you actually. Then, make yourself proud with your smart decision.

What? what happen if your opponent didn't have a weakness? Don't worry, it was impossible. We was born as a human, we always doing the mistake. Believe me.

Looking forward. No matter who are you, how big your position, how much your salary was, it was always same. human always be a human. We have to respect each other. Doctor? Lawyer? Engineer? Pegawai Agama? Polis ? Rela? It was a rubbish! It was only a title to be state into your facebook account to make it interesting for the new BURUNG-BURUNG diluar sana untuk di ejas.

At last, you will be there - to the top of the hierarchy - maybe. So,how your produce your smart working to lead your teenage either they follow your stupid character to bring this country move forward or still keep doing the same - and the same until a thousand year's in front of us.

make it different kawan!!

Teachers and Teaching

Time : 2330
Day : Wednesday / November,3rd

Teachers are educators. Yes,that is truth. No question about that. But, far from my heart - my feeling, it was based on true story.

Back to 7 or 8 years ago,they called me tiada masa depan punya orang. Who are you to judge the other people like that bos?are you God??

Not even that,you judge me as sudah sesat punya budak.How do you know the different between sudah sesat punya orang and belum sesat punya orang?i dun really know if your education book or your philosophy book was specifies all this thing into your account.

Come on.Dun even you read the BERITA HARIAN, or the other one that read METRO - you said yo know everything. You brought all this stories around the school. And then, your friends can said : owh, you was save your student from that black issue!

Please,open your mind - open your eyes - Look around you - you are the teachers bos!

Hey,i want you to know this one thing : everyone in this world have their own hobbies man. And if you want to know, i like music very much. Then,i collect all the music that i like,make it proper in my collection. Dun judge me if you dun know me.please.

I dun care if you dun like me, i dun care if u dun want me to be your good student - but please respect the other people. It's the natural, if you respect your friends, then your friends can give you more than that.right?

Sometime, it was funny when i memories all that think. With 2 to 3 teachers beside me said : siapa kawan-kawan u lagi?apa yang kamu buat?kamu sembahyang tak?
Owhhhhhh.i dun know how to describe it in very detailed story cause i dun know what was happen actually. A Litlle bid of stupid humor.

Thanks to your lesson that i have learned over there, but no thanks to your advice bos!

Please be teachers. Your teaching was in your heart.

selamat malam!

national Day

Time : 0130
Day : Friday / September,2nd

Ya. I like to talking about this issue. No answer. We have a million of answer. Why? Cause, we have a million of people here. Everyone have their own opinion - in different style.

Drinking beer? Club? Drunk? Drug? Set-up a one night stand at starlight hotel? or also berlumba motorsikal di jalanan? Is there independance? Is there patriotisme? or is there free from colonial? Hahaha. Bullshit! Yes,Bullshit!!

Owh! I also like to mention this one thing, kehulu-kehilir membawa JALUR GEMILANG - for me - is not the way you treat this value of national day. Hahaha. WHY? I am The Bullshit also? Yes, if you're thinking like that.

No. I am not a supporter of Barisan Nasional. Far away the Pakatan Rakyat supporter. Far far away the Parti Islam Semalaysia supporter.

Hahahahahaaaa.......

national Day..

a Time

Time : 2250
Day : Wednesday night

I was eight or nine years old when i first introduced by construction work. Either this is coincidence or not - i dun really understand it.

Sometimes, i think - It should be fun when i move back to remember all the thing that give me 'a Time'. Let me take this point as an example :

Go back to 16 years ago :

Every day, after balik sekolah agama (it's usually around 6 o'clock) - i become an excited mood cause i have to follow my friend to the heaven. Heaven here means, a place that give me and also my friend a lot of fun. In general, this is place that have everything to be played. We have a block of concrete, machineries, small wood house and also Mat-Mat indon. In specific, this place is construction area which is the construction for a new sekolah agama rakyat!

What i am thinking at that time is, how that Mat-Mat indon was so skilled to construct a very difficult building in-front of me! And also, how they was learn to driving very big machines in-front of me! Owh..That give me a very impressed feeling that i can remember until a few years ago.

Not even that, usually before i left that heaven, they also give me a keropok or nasi goreng - and i will share with my friend - while chatting with them. owh god! It's such a feeling that you can't imagine what is that according to your age at that time!

And now, i was understand what is that.

Learning Process

Time : 2340
Day : Tuesday night

Light rain was still pouring out there. Kuala Lumpur hit by the rainy season in the evening and late evening almost every day.

Me? Yes! Still sitting in front of the keyboard - doing writing and updating my blog.hahaha..

Writing and reading is always give me a spirit. This two thing is not absolutely my hobby, but i Like to doing this two thing. I dun know why, but the answer is : i get the satisfaction after finish the writing or also when i'm finish reading anything that i like to read. This is truth!

Back to the topic. Learning process is how the time can give you an experience, for me - this is what i want to said. Yes, we must go through all this to move forward. Don't give it difficult, just follow the flow of the Life - then you will find - it was funs - it was a Life!

Sometimes i think that : what is this man? bullshit! But in a different side, i have to re-think again what is this and what is that. If i even have a million dollar of money now, then i dun know how to use it - it's still a rubbish problem. Then, what i should do know is : just follow the flow of the Life. Everything is ok, everything is orait, everything is fine - for now.

This writing will stop up-here tonight.

jumpa Lagi!

Mr Rules

Every time you turn around
You point your fingers to the fore
When you die alone
Nobody wants to kill you anymore

And there is nothing you can do
Like saving lives from bullet guns
Self-confused reduced
Their power seduce your sympathy

You fight yourself of nothing else
Reprieved yourself to make believe
Please don't believe the truth
It's only can be bargained anytime

They built you apathetic dreams
Sentenced your life until the end
For sure you can't escape
Now you don't realize anything else

I found it hard to believe you for what is true!!

JEWISH hate MUSLIM!

Sitting with newspaper on hand - Buletin Utama on tv3, give me awareness on this issue. I dun really know, what is mean helping Gaza by muslim. Yes, we did some of action on this issue, but why 1Malaysia - inspiration by prime minister didn't give the soul of 1Malaysia to descending this issue? This is not a religion issue, this is violations of human right issue! Everyone should be blame the Jewish side! Yes, we should stop the Jewish!

Not even wearing shirt shown with : Boycott Israel! Boycott Israel product! - But in the same time give $10 dollar to transfer with the burger in Big Yellow Company outside there. This is nothing!

Sometime, i think this is the right time to express our attitude to hate Jewish. I wonder, when we are happy with expensive mobile phone - with internet at every place - but the kid's in Gaza was died by AK47 - Jewish Dead Bullet's. Not for Gaza only, we also have a kid's at Afghanistan, Karachi, Sudan, Bosnia, Lebanon and all countries that was brewing for a very - long time - To be SAVED.

We have to change this phrase : JEWISH hate MUSLIM

Selamat malam..

berLagak

Time : 0330
Day : Wednesday - early morning

Complete two nights i sleep late. I have to go out on 7am this morning - only 3 and half hour from now. What a bad night here?Arhh..

Let we start :

I dun know either this is i am or this is not i am. 'berLagak' is a two different thing - for me lah! When you like this one and the other also like that one - it's mean - ok lah untuk korang berdua. It's also mean, everything you do, everything you said, everything you want, everything for everything sekali pun - you still glad with the other.

But in an opponent action is, you like this one and the other said : no! you are wrong! you are not good! you are crazy! you are! you are! everything you are lah senang cakap kn?

Then, what you are waiting for? You are waiting for the first scene or the second one? Ask your self, restart your self properly, don't even talking without the fact. I have and should to said, berlagak is not for me. Like this phrase mean lah : Tak kenal - maka tak cinta kan?

This night, i have to give a credit for my good friend :

" Selamat hari Lahir - Pijoe - May God bless him "

Selamat pagi juga untuk kamu semua..

Berhenti disini..

dAA..

charger Problem

Time : 0130
Day : Also Tuesday

Hahahaha..

Finally..I got the answer!

Phone was generated again. No! It's not same with an hour before! It's totally different! It's generated with the full volume of battery!!

How it become? Yes, not for everything but in sudden death time - We have to use some of brain potential to solve the problem!

Success on this night - morning are suitable :

Phone from zero battery become phone with full battery without using charger.

Charger - was rubbish - a little brain work - overcome charger Problem!

free Fall

Time : 0034
Day : Tuesday - early morning

I'm writing back. There have a lot of story to writing back. What mean's here?
Arhhhhh!!!I dun know either this is good or bad, but the truth is - I have to start again!

Yes..I'll start :

Sitting here with all the song from weakerthans, bad religion also - ahh..Canadians Rock is always awesome! With a long way - the truth is : I have a few months of not seeing Rock show concert give me a feeling like 'free Fall'. Haa,there is! Finally i said that what is the title mean's!!hahaha.

The important thing here is, i didn't have a good ability to provide or something like managing the good phrase to built a good title. From there, i'm always using the same thing - repeat - and repeat again the same thing! And, it was usually give a very worse title for me. Yes, i'm do it again! See?Then? What a Loser guys are you??hahaha.

No wonder cause, I am familiar with that title! Fall again..huh!

off-Line

Due to a few problem, i heading to Desa Temu Jodoh!

Stop give me a pressure!!

oFF-Line until april, 26th..

Lone ranger dan masalah

Hmmm..

Kenangan lalu memang sukar untuk dilalui. Entah kenapa,bila hati sudah tenang - akan ada benda yg menghantui aku semula. Kenapa die tak faham? Die sudah tiada dalam hati ini - aku tidak perlukan die lagi! Aku mampu untuk hidup sendirian. Aku tidak mampu lagi untuk terus memberikan die harapan - kerana aku sendiri sudah tidak ada hati untuk itu!

Aku tenang begini, aku happy begini, aku bahagia begini, aku enjoy begini. Menghabis kan sisa-sisa persekolahan sambil melihat sekeliling dan belajar menerima hakikat akan kehidupan. Give her a full-stop! The past is past and what that i am looking is the thing in-front of me..may god bless her!

Masalah memang tak pernah lari dari kehidupan, semakin jauh kita lari semakin hampir dia mengejar. Minggu ini tercipta lagi satu sejarah, mulut yg sudah lama terkunci akhir-nya ku-buka. Berhenti menjadi seorang yg berhati lembut. Bukan bermakna kasar - tapi lebih kepada memberikan kesedaran. Kita tidak perlukan 'action' untuk melakukan itu semua, tetapi cukup sekadar berkata-kata. Dan ingat,kita mesti berdiri di-atas kaki kita sendiri untuk berjaya - bukan di-atas kaki orang lain untuk menumpang kejayaan!

Minggu yg meletihkan disudahi dengan agak cemerlang. Mungkin aku memilih percutian untuk merehat kan segala-nya. Berhenti bermimpi - keep it rock gurL!!!